Deuteronomy 7:9 NKJV
2 Tim 2:13 NKJV
Isaiah 55:6-13 NKJV
From the Beginning
During my life while I have not struggled to believe in and rely on God’s faithfulness, I have struggled to understand God’s faithfulness. For as long as I can remember, God gas been an integral part of my life. I remember hearing about Jesus and how He cares for us when I was three/four years old. I believe from before the beginning God is and has been faithful.
There is a difference between believing in God’s faithfulness and understanding how God’s faithfulness will ‘play out’ in any given situation.
Deuteronomy 7:9 says, “Therefore know that the Lord your God, He is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and mercy for a thousand generations with those who love Him and keep His commandments.”
God has and does keep His covenant with us. God is merciful through a thousand generations. God keeps His covenant and is merciful to those who turn to Him. We can look to God because throughout scripture we read about His faithfulness to the generations. For example, God brought Israel into Egypt to save them from famine and drought in Genesis 47. Then, God delivered Israel from the hands of the Pharoah in Exodus 12:31-42.
In Deuteronomy 4:30-31, we learn of God’s mercy: “When you are in distress, and all these things come upon you in the latter days, when you turn to the Lord your God and obey His voice (for the Lord your God is a merciful God), He will not forsake you nor destroy you, nor forget the covenant of your fathers which He swore to them.”
In 2 Timothy 2:13, we are told “If we are faithless, he remains faithful; he cannot deny Himself.”
We know God is faithful.
But when life throws you a curve ball we can feel confused and unsure about what is happening.
When I was 28 years old I was pregnant with my fourth child. I had a dream that I had a little blonde headed girl and her name was Angela. Every time I got pregnant I had a dream and I knew what the child’s name would be.
Everything was wonderful.
Then, in week nine of the pregnancy I started having problems. My doctor ordered bed rest in the hospital. He knew I had three children at home and he wanted me to DO NOTHING.
On the afternoon of the third day I seemed to be doing better and we through it was possible that I was ‘out of the woods’.
I was cramping some, but I wasn’t too concerned about that.
After 6pm the cramps increased and I miscarried the child.
The reason I was confused was that I had a dream that I was carrying a girl and her name would be Angela.
In my confusion and pain, I turned to God and pleaded for an answer.
God gave me Isaiah 55:6-13:
“Seek the Lord while He may be found, Call upon Him while He is near.
Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts; let him return to the Lord, and He will have mercy on him; and to our God, for He will abundantly pardon.
“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord.
“For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts. “For as the rain comes down, and the snow from heaven, and do not return there, but water the earth, and make it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower and bread to the eater, so shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth; it shall not return to Me void, but it shall accomplish what I please, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it. “For you shall go out with joy, and be led out with peace; the mountains and the hills shall break forth into singing before you, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands. Instead of the thorn shall come up the cypress tree, and instead of the brier shall come up the myrtle tree; and it shall be to the Lord for a name, for an everlasting sign that shall not be cut off.”
When I read, “my thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways” I felt like God was saying there were things going on that I would not understand. In time I was able to surrender it to God and tell Him that even though I didn’t understand His thoughts and His ways I trusted Him.
In time I realized in the dream the girl was riding a bicycle.
That’s exactly what she was doing. She was riding her bicycle in heaven.
The doctor advised me to wait to try to get pregnant a fifth time. I’d had 3 C-sections in a short amount of time and my body needed to rest.
In time I did get pregnant again. My fourth child and third son was born a few years later. I KNOW I have another child in heaven.
“My thoughts are not your thoughts…”
Thirty eight years later I KNOW I was supposed to raise one daughter and three sons. I know that my youngest son is the child I needed. I cannot imagine life without him. He is sensitive, he loves people, and he is my only child who is an extreme extrovert.
In many ways, he is our glue.
God knew he was the one we needed. I just needed to surrender that to God and trust he was doing what was best for us.
Today’s Spiritual Practice is: Trust God
Tell God you trust Him to do what is best for you.
In God, Deborah
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