Series: Call Me
Psalm 120:1 ESV
When we navigate the road of life we often forget that everything we encounter has the ability to change or rearrange the decisions we make.
We are a complex people.
The human brain does not actually delete and sent any experiences to the trash. It remembers.
In addition to that I believe those experiences add to or change our core.
Humans possess intelligence, a system of beliefs, character traits, and values. Depending on the severity of experiences of any event all of the things that make us human can change slightly or dramatically.
What we choose to do about changes can impact our future.
The severity of the event determines how much we change.
Psalm 120:1 says, “I took my troubles to the Lord; I cried out to him, and he answered my prayer.”
For example last night I received a request to visit a friend. When I walked into the house I could sense tension and grief. I quietly turned to the Spirit (in my mind) and invited God “in”.
As we sat together and I heard the story of what had transpired and the reason for the grief became apparent.
For about an hour I asked questions that the Spirit whispered to me. I don’t pretend (and have never pretended) that I have answers. The answer and the road to peace lies within each person and God.
They know.
God knows.
I am a third party hoping to guide the way to truth and healing.
For several years my Spiritual Director gently guided me to the answer and the truth God had for me. When I first visited him I was a very broken woman.
I had lost nearly everything I relied on. My truth changed drastically and because of that trust n anything was nearly gone.
I felt like God forgot about me.
In time I learned the opposite was true.
God not only was with me in my trial, God was with me in my renewal.
Every day (nearly every minute) as I cried and grieved every loss I took my pain and loss to God and the Spirit would heal another broken part.
The broken parts were the reason I started going to sit with a Spiritual Director. When I first heard about a Spiritual Director someone at work who knew my story gave me his phone number.
I was already in Counseling but my friend at work told me Spiritual Direction and counseling were not the same.
She was right.
The counseling sessions ended after several weeks and I spent years sitting with my Spiritual Director.
I had been a member of various churches all my life and I’d been a praying person for years but my time with a Spiritual Director helped me to deep dive into myself and my relationship with God.
He asked me questions I hadn’t even thought about.
He did not give me answers even when I begged for answers.
He simple helped me to look deep within myself and my relationship with God so I could find truth.
Years later I still remember those years as being a time of awareness.
So fast forward to today.
Yesterday someone asked me a question and I thought I was giving a straight forward answer. I did not expect what happened next.
The person who asked the question argued, yelled, and refused to let me speak. Clearly, something had happened or had been said that I knew nothing about.
When it happened I left the room momentarily so I could pray and clear my head. When I returned or became clear to me that misinformation was an issue.
I was reminded that “troubles” can come in all shapes and sizes. I still don’t know what sparked the fuel that caused the problem. What I do know is that when I am confused and I don’t know all the facts about what happened, God does know.
I can relax, turn to God and say, “what just happened here?” and I can give the matter to God.
Spiritual Practice: Turn to God
The next time you are broad-sided, give the matter to God.
In God, Deborah
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